I've been a sufferer of self harm since I was about 9. At the time I didn't think it was self harm and I juts simply dug a sharp object across my arm now and then. It progressed to the stage where I've been hospitalized more times than I can count. I had a very troubled childhood and the life I lead up until I ran away from home I'm not proud of and I still struggle day-to-day with self harm. I don't hide my scars any more, I used to wear lots of bracelets and sometimes I used this special effects make up that only came off when you scrubbed it. I was known as the loner in school, no one had heard me talk until year 10. (or 10th grade) I have over 300 scars all over my body which are only the ones that I can count not the ones I've done in the past. Scars are very hard to conceal and with people asking questions and ridiculing you before they know what happened doesn't help the situation.
Now I'm 19, have an amazing boyfriend and couldn't care less what people thought of me. If they want to stare and say things, let them. They can't bring you any lower than you've already been before and say to yourself 'Do you really want to have to take this journey all over again?' That's my deterrent.
I hope you accept your scars for what they are, it took me a long time to realise that.
Wow. You sound like such a strong person. I hope I can overcome the judgement that other people bestow upon me. I guess what you say about they can't bring you any lower than you've already felt is true. I'll try and remember that.
I'm sorry you've had so much shit and you're obviously fairly scarred. I think you're amazing for coming through :)
It's nice that you have an understanding boyfriend. I'm sort of worried about finding a girlfriend as I am scared of what she'll think.
Did you ever self harm and how do you cope with the scars?
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I've been a sufferer of self harm since I was about 9. At the time I didn't think it was self harm and I juts simply dug a sharp object across my arm now and then. It progressed to the stage where I've been hospitalized more times than I can count. I had a very troubled childhood and the life I lead up until I ran away from home I'm not proud of and I still struggle day-to-day with self harm. I don't hide my scars any more, I used to wear lots of bracelets and sometimes I used this special effects make up that only came off when you scrubbed it. I was known as the loner in school, no one had heard me talk until year 10. (or 10th grade) I have over 300 scars all over my body which are only the ones that I can count not the ones I've done in the past. Scars are very hard to conceal and with people asking questions and ridiculing you before they know what happened doesn't help the situation.
Now I'm 19, have an amazing boyfriend and couldn't care less what people thought of me. If they want to stare and say things, let them. They can't bring you any lower than you've already been before and say to yourself 'Do you really want to have to take this journey all over again?' That's my deterrent.
I hope you accept your scars for what they are, it took me a long time to realise that.
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Wow. You sound like such a strong person. I hope I can overcome the judgement that other people bestow upon me. I guess what you say about they can't bring you any lower than you've already felt is true. I'll try and remember that.
I'm sorry you've had so much shit and you're obviously fairly scarred. I think you're amazing for coming through :)
It's nice that you have an understanding boyfriend. I'm sort of worried about finding a girlfriend as I am scared of what she'll think.