Did the whole 'girl power' movement in the 90s really work?
I think it just made me not like men.
Now I'm single and in my thirties and I find it hard to be physically or emotionally attracted to men because most men (except a rare subsection who are often gay) are 'gross' and 'violent' and 'insensitive' and 'ugly' and 'only after one thing', and just about everything that needs to be done in life I can do without them, except things requiring immense physical strength, but everyday life doesn't require you to do much of that if you don't want to, anyway. Oh, and pee standing up and sing really low. But who actually needs to do that?
These are more-or-less the attitudes I absorbed when I was a kid. But I regret having absorbed them. I want to be able to like men more - and to like more kinds of men. Not just thinnish ones with piercing blue eyes, soft skin, gentle voices, no facial hair and no muscles, and ones that look like girls. I want there to be something inherent in masculinity itself that I can find beautiful and admirable besides the weiner (which, I'm sorry to say, is massively overrated. I've lacked nothing for never having seen one in real life up close, except perhaps a baby, but I'm not in a rush to have one of those...).
I don't like being this way. Is it normal for girls of the nineties to feel shortchanged by the 'girl power' they were made to imbibe?