Did i break my own hymen?
Okay so I've been intentionally wanting to break my own hymen for a while now (in an attempt to make sex for the first time that little bit less messy/painful and thus more enjoyable etc as I've only been mildly fingered before so I'm pretty sure it's still mostly intact) Anyway about 3 days ago, I basically inserted a fairly small plastic tube about the size of a mini pritt stick (I cleaned it beforehand!) and there has been a small amount of blood in my pants/pee every since (I had my period 2 weeks ago)
So I'm just wondering if I have *FINALLY* indeed broken my hymen (if so, yay, mission complete!) OR if I have simply DAMAGED something else?! It is in no way painful down there so I can't imagine I've caused some infection, the blood is much less then that of a period and isn't as red in color, but I still want to just make sure nothings gone wrong... Also is it normal for girls to want intentionally broken their own hymen to make their first time more enjoyable, or is it just me?