Depressed for no reason?

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Recently it was my birthday; I am not too popular within college and tend to just hang around with my boyfriend. You’d think on my birthday especially, he would come see me for lunch so I didn’t have to sit alone. Well he didn’t and decided to spend lunch with his classmates (which one of them is his ex), at first I thought he had rehearsals (seen as he is part of a performing arts course), but that evening he informed me that he had chosen to eat with them because he was seeing me that evening.
On a normal Thusday we would have spent both lunch and after college together anyway; so I felt really down about it, especially seen as it was my birthday. I mean it wasn’t even like I stop him seeing them; he’d seen them the whole day before. So I got pretty effected and found myself crying on my birthday. As evening came and he tried to make it up to me; I found myself cheered up and thought I was over it.
Over the current weekend I began slitting; never before had I thought about it. I couldn’t stop myself and I just couldn’t stop crying. I attempted to kill myself twice and found I was scared of myself. Today, I talked to my boyfriend about it; I can’t lie to him, so he has been really great and stood by me, cheered me up and really pulled me out of the depression I was suffering.
However, question is; it normal to get so suicidal over a simple mistake he made?

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  • thread
    13 years ago | pl

    There is no shame in seeing a therapist.

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    13 years ago | pl

    Thank you for your helpful advice, I have for at least the past 4 months been a lot happier; although there are time I get depressed - mostly when I am stressed however, so probably just normal for someone my age.

    I feel fine now, and turned out I didn't need a counsellor however I have been considering seeing one in a long time and one day I guess I won't be able to avoid it.

    Your advice has been really reassuring and much more nicer than I'd expected - so thanks for taking the time to read. It is much appreciated.

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  • ruralfrights
    13 years ago | pl

    Don't have any stats saying so, but if I did, I would say that, no, this is not in the range of normal. I hate to say this as it seems that I always do, but it applies. This is not about your boyfriend, being alone on your birthday, or any other trivial matter you may think of, although more sensitivity on his part would have been appreciated .

    I have s good friend that cuts herself, and I always thought she was trying to commit suicide. Wasn't so. She explained of feeling so powerless and in so much pain that, by cutting, she had a sense of control. "i,not you, will hurt me now. And look at how much pain I've been in. This much!" this is reinactment of her words. The abuse was severe: multiple times of molestation, seems that's a common denominator for people who cut.

    And don't take me too seriously. Not s shrink nor a pro. Just offering what I see as insightful. If the shoe doesn't git then don't wear it. But, this isn't going to just go away. It will get progressively worse until treated. Find a well-recommended psych and therapist. Best wishes to you

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  • Northlife
    13 years ago | pl

    It might not be just the fact he made a mistake, but you might have some underlying problems. It sounds like you really like this guy, so i can see how you may be upset by his actions, but if they make you suicidal then it's definately worth talking to your guy or even a counsellor about how you're feeling.

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