Your genes might mean you're predisposed to alcohol addiction, but even so, you still have it in you to decide what you do.
My father, apparently, was a heavy drinker with problems, though I have no recollection of him and my mother died at 40 as a result of alcohol abuse. You needen't ask what childhood was like and it's a very strange feeling when you get older than your mum did so quickly.
Though, it's been my choice whether or not to drink. Maybe the genes have pushed me one way when, if I didn't have them, I'd have chosen another.
Usually, it's something that triggers me to drink. Upset over something or other and it just numbs the effects. When I'm drunk I'm having fun, laughing at stuff, or even if I'm sad it's numbing the pain.
I stopped for 3 months June to September until something happened at work and i hit it again.
Now I'm back at the angry with myself stage again. Haven't had a drink for a few days. Oh I want one; it's 11pm and I'm sitting here alone again. Boredom mostly. Just something to make the time pass quickly. But as soon as I have a drink, I lose.
That's exactly how I feel about it. It's so easy to say how harmless it is and if it helps, then why not? But I don't want it to become a problem.
It may already be becoming a problem. I think that I've suceeded in making my friend stop talking to me because of that drunk episode. So it's just made me feel worse...
Craving alcohol even though I rarely drink
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Your genes might mean you're predisposed to alcohol addiction, but even so, you still have it in you to decide what you do.
My father, apparently, was a heavy drinker with problems, though I have no recollection of him and my mother died at 40 as a result of alcohol abuse. You needen't ask what childhood was like and it's a very strange feeling when you get older than your mum did so quickly.
Though, it's been my choice whether or not to drink. Maybe the genes have pushed me one way when, if I didn't have them, I'd have chosen another.
Usually, it's something that triggers me to drink. Upset over something or other and it just numbs the effects. When I'm drunk I'm having fun, laughing at stuff, or even if I'm sad it's numbing the pain.
I stopped for 3 months June to September until something happened at work and i hit it again.
Now I'm back at the angry with myself stage again. Haven't had a drink for a few days. Oh I want one; it's 11pm and I'm sitting here alone again. Boredom mostly. Just something to make the time pass quickly. But as soon as I have a drink, I lose.
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That's exactly how I feel about it. It's so easy to say how harmless it is and if it helps, then why not? But I don't want it to become a problem.
It may already be becoming a problem. I think that I've suceeded in making my friend stop talking to me because of that drunk episode. So it's just made me feel worse...
Okay. Not tonight then.