I COMPLETELY get you. I love God but i can be such. Such. Such. A bad kid. Ive broken pretty much all of the 10 commandments .. EXCEPT KILLING SOMEONE! and im gunna keep it like that! Since u feel like ur a mess i can relate too. When your hurt. When life is smacking you in the nuts..
I used to be suicidal.. Parents argued constantly(which eventually they got divorced). Relationship with them sucked. I had NO friends.1 of two closest just turned their backs on me. The other.. fuck forget her lol. My siblings wanted nothing to do with me, my sister bullied me. My only companionship I felt was with my cat(haha so lame..) and she was taken to the pound. Cried myself to sleep. Attempted to run away. Just hate everything everyone. Used to feel and think why God would let me go through this? So I stopped believing. But after a while I started praying to Him. And with other ugly struggles I've gone through. Whenever I'm torn He's there. place your faith in Him. See what happens.
conflict of faith?
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I COMPLETELY get you. I love God but i can be such. Such. Such. A bad kid. Ive broken pretty much all of the 10 commandments .. EXCEPT KILLING SOMEONE! and im gunna keep it like that! Since u feel like ur a mess i can relate too. When your hurt. When life is smacking you in the nuts..
I used to be suicidal.. Parents argued constantly(which eventually they got divorced). Relationship with them sucked. I had NO friends.1 of two closest just turned their backs on me. The other.. fuck forget her lol. My siblings wanted nothing to do with me, my sister bullied me. My only companionship I felt was with my cat(haha so lame..) and she was taken to the pound. Cried myself to sleep. Attempted to run away. Just hate everything everyone. Used to feel and think why God would let me go through this? So I stopped believing. But after a while I started praying to Him. And with other ugly struggles I've gone through. Whenever I'm torn He's there. place your faith in Him. See what happens.