Chubby chaser

i am 19 years old and was raped at the age of 4 by my fatbabysitter in arkansas. he was actually my cousin, my bothole is about 3 inches wide now. well anyways this incedent has scarred my better jewish jugdment into bing interested in women wieghing over 300 lbs they all arouse me... except black ones... ewwwwwww!!!! the thought of big fat rolls and stickin my c*ck between thier chins is even more arousing... my ex-girlfrend was a german supermodel we did it many times but i never came. this is the reason why we broke up and thanks to her mom i realized my passion for overweight girls.. i am now dating a three hundred pounder and i nearly gizz myself wen i see her... is that normal???