You are in a no win situation. During my third year of marriage, I had an affair with a woman that I thought at the time was my "soul mate". She was the only woman who ever made me cum from a blow job and when I watched her swallow my load, I was mesmerized. We used to meet several times a week at her place during our lunch hour and either make passionate love or "69" for the whole time. The affair lasted nine months and I knew that it wouldn't end pretty, so my wife & I, along with my baby girl moved cross country back home. I had terrible feelings of guilt, not being able to confess, but at the same time, missing my soul mate and our absolute perfect sex life. I promised myself that I would never cheat again and haven't yet in the subsequent 20+ years. That is why my recent gay fantasies have made me think twice about bringing them to life. I might be better off just jerking off to gay porn nightly, rather than risk everything again. The only thing about that is I would be in constant internal strife regarding my sexuality.
Cheating was fun. But now what?
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You are in a no win situation. During my third year of marriage, I had an affair with a woman that I thought at the time was my "soul mate". She was the only woman who ever made me cum from a blow job and when I watched her swallow my load, I was mesmerized. We used to meet several times a week at her place during our lunch hour and either make passionate love or "69" for the whole time. The affair lasted nine months and I knew that it wouldn't end pretty, so my wife & I, along with my baby girl moved cross country back home. I had terrible feelings of guilt, not being able to confess, but at the same time, missing my soul mate and our absolute perfect sex life. I promised myself that I would never cheat again and haven't yet in the subsequent 20+ years. That is why my recent gay fantasies have made me think twice about bringing them to life. I might be better off just jerking off to gay porn nightly, rather than risk everything again. The only thing about that is I would be in constant internal strife regarding my sexuality.