But she's gay!!

Well basically im in love with my lesbian best friend. It hurts me sooo much inside everytime I think about it, she's gay and doesn't want men. We talk we do everything together she's exactly what im looking for in a girl she's down and understands the way boys think.. She's awsome. I told her I can't be friends with her anymore because it isn't fair im a streight a guy I can't just be friends with a hot chick its impossible she can be friends and only friends with me because she's gay. So our friendship is unfair and I stoped it im stil very much in love with her. She told me that im a lesbian because I understand her as if im a lesbian chickand she loves me but the fact that im a guy deters us from going out or getting closer this isn't normal I hate these feelings!!