Brawny man hairy man

as a child, i would purposely spill drinks in my kitchen just so i could and grab our paper towels and just stare at the brawny man, his eyes and lips and hairy, muscular arms just sent my penis through the roof, whenever my parents bought a different paper towel brand, i would go into spiraling depression for weeks or until they bought me my brawny, as i got older and discovered masturbation, i would take the whole paper towel roll, brawny man and all, and violently and passionately beat off with it, i got away with these acts for a number of years until my parents found the pile of brawny paper towel rolls in my closet with the brawny mans face missing and the whole thing covered in semen, since then i am prohibited from touching the paper towels, but i sneak every once in a while ;) Is it normal?