Body dysmorphic disorder?
you ever just feel like a giant joke? I'm always getting told how skinny and good looking i am but they're jokes right?, i get things like "oh it must be so difficult being beautiful" or "you're so skinny, eat!" and i usually just laugh it off because i think they're joking, but then I'm like what if they're not? i mean i can not possibly be the standard for beauty! im crazy flawed. this really affects my life, i don't date because when they ask, i think they're kidding,so i just smile and say no. like i don't know whats serious and whats not. and i hold on to peoples comments about me like crazy, good or bad! it drives me insane. i know this most likely is not normal, but who gets to decide right? does normal even exist? whatever, i just want feedback. OH AND I'M A FUCKING BOY. yeah! ever been called pretty instead of handsome your entire life? i have. I'm crazy confused.