Being sexually reclusive?

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I was wondering if there is something wrong with being 36 year old sexually reclusive virgin. I don't like being it at my age but I realise that my lifestyle has brought me in this situation. I am very reclusive person and prefer to be alone and see no issue with it. I have no friends or social life beside my own family so I got no one really to relate to. I seem to be totally disconnected from society and everything that other people do like fashion, visiting pubs and clubs, dating. These are all things that I absolutely despise. I guess I am individual person living in my own world. I have been only once or twice in night club and bar in my entire life and couldn’t' wait to get out of there. I have never been back because it's not my scene. I don't even drink or smoke. I do have some social anxiety and tend to avoid places where there is a lot rambunctious crowd and noise. I can be social but I tend to keep to myself. I never have problem interacting with people and people find me good company and with sense of humour. The thing is I never meet anyone as a potential partner or girlfriend and frankly I have never looked for one. You could say I am little a misogynist but not in total sense that I would go out of my way to hurt women. I just avoid them and dislike sharing emotions, being intimate, being touched and feeling vulnerable and out control. I feel relationships are a burden and just too much hassle. I am not depended on them. I think I am different because there is introspective side to me that longs for spiritual connection with god, universe and nature. I have definitely taken my eyeball off physical side of life. I am not a sex freak or desperately looking to jump in bed with someone. I don't long for touch and physical sensation. I have abstained from sexual intercourse all my life that it's not even important to me at all. I am complete switched off in that sense. I know it can be great and enjoyable experience but I definitely don't have desire or wish to even try it. I think I am used to being totally sexual reclusive. I am really content with the way things are in my life but I’m starting to feel pressure from outside and people in society. I am starting to question myself hence I need to know now is it normal to be like this? I am naturally stubborn and against changing my lifestyle but have this fear that someday in future I may face a critical scrutiny over my life choice and I don’t want to be victim or ridicule because I don’t have sexual experience. There are many intolerant and uncompassionate people in the world and they would never understand or ask me why I am like this. It’s my nature and I am content with it but I am feeling forced into it only prove a point to society and not feel embarrassed about being it. I wouldn’t care if I was virgin in my forties or fifties or rest of my life for that matter. I know this will freak some people out but it's not an issue for me. It’s far bigger issue for other people and that's the problem lies.

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Comments ( 4 )
  • Ellenna

    That all seems normal for you and you need to learn to ignore other people's judgment of you. It's nobody's business but your own.

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  • Ratmanwakes

    Seems there are a lot of people like you on this site. This site provides an outlet to be with people without actually being with them. This post of yours was written two months ago so I hope you are reading my words now. You are not alone. I am here with you. Think about that and I hope it helps you feel less lonesome.

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  • silkspector

    In todays society I would say normal its your decision you choose your life style and you are the only 1 who can change it

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  • alnorth36

    you are fucked.....

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