Being sexually frustrated for years, i did it w/ 30+ hookers in europe

When I was in college, I was totally clueless when it came to dating women. I ended up doing a lot of favors for them, trying to being their "friend", etc. so I could get a date. I ended up wasting a ton of time and some money doing so for years. It was failure after failure with countless women. At 23, I had enough and lost my virginity at a brothel in Nevada.

Losing my virginity took a little pressure off as I didn't waste as much time as before pursuing women. But I was still horrible at getting close with them, especially at an intimate level (almost every encounter ended up with "let's just be friends.")

2 years later, I had enough. At the same time, I had been assigned to work in Europe for a year. While in Europe, I took a trip to Amsterdam or this red light district in Germany roughly every month. I think I must have had sex with at least 30 different hookers during this time. Near the end, I honestly felt a bit "sick" of mindless sex with women I didn't know but it felt great getting it out of my system finally.

Nowadays, I've returned to the US and stopped paying for sex.. it seems I've pretty much lost interest in meaningless sex as I've said earlier. I've also felt easier to date and connect with normal women as I've no longer been giving off that sex-crazed desperate aura I did many years ago. However, I've not said anything about my experience in the past as most would probably be very judgemental about it (but I've gotten tested for STDs multiple times and all came out negative.)