Being always down, and always having been kicked whilst down
Every single day of my life, I have been fucking cursed with being always down, and always having been kicked whilst down.
Recently, my girlfriend of half a year broke up with me without warning. Not even an hour later, my computer gets infected with fake antivirus software and my whole computer is pretty much fucked, save for the internet. This just broke me. I was tired of putting up with everyone's shit.
So my question is this, is it normal to want to kill everyone who has wronged you in horrible ways, and is it also normal to cry when they don't get the justice they deserve and/or wind up in a position of great happiness?