Been with 45+ prostitutes, i'm 20 yrs old. what are my options
I am 20 years old and have not been with a real girl. I have had sex with over 45+ prostitutes, safe for the most part, otherwise I've been tested and I'm std free. I'm not ugly, I get called handsome pretty often. I'm tall 6'1 and athletic.
This started for me back in high school, I ended up switching schools very often and that definitely slowed down my social skills growth as well as made me a generally angry person. I didn't talk much to people in high school seeing as how I was in a new school every year and I didn't like my situation so I stayed mostly to myself.
I started looking up girls on the internet and visited my first escort when I was 17. Since then I've seen over 40 women (all escorts). Huge # of factors like moving to different places and family problems have all prevented me from ever really being happy long enough to talk to other women. Sure i've had chances with real women, recently I talked to this beautiful girl for a few months and almost ended up dating her. But I think she could tell something might have been different in me vs other guys she talked to so that didnt end up happening. I'm not a loner/creep or anything like that. Like I said I play sports, have friends, i'm average social-wise, and not bad looking. I'm in college and I'm pretty smart. Despite the # of women I've been with very few of them were passionate in sex like it's supposed to be, and more so very robotic. But they were escorts so it's to be expected I guess. I do want to live a normal life, whatever that entails. So I am not sure how to go about this. Should I completely avoid escorts and dating all together for a while to work on myself? Should I stop escorts and try to date? Or should I seek therapy?
Thank you for reading
| Should I try and leave this behind me and date other women | 49 | |
| Should I avoid dating and seek therapy? | 30 | |
| Do I stop seeing escorts and avoiding dating for a while to 'reboot'? | 17 |