Bad experience
One day I was at home guy offered meet get a blowjob online but I wasn't thinking off the guy part just getting sucked so met up seen guy was half afraid tbh he gave a blowjob after wards I felt sick my nerves every where can't sleep can't eat regret it so much turns my stomach I am ashamed its stuck on my mind the sick feeling I love women not even attracted to men feel really bad n ashamed that was worst day my life biggest mistake ever I felt like I was used even tho was my own fault felt like killing myself over this experience never will a man be around me again i want a wife loads of kids I regret this so much pls be nice is it normal ??