Are my sudden urges to do terrible things normal?
One moment I am so relaxed, calm, and everything is okay, but then I just get the sudden urge to do something FREAKISHLY dangerous like stab someone or set my house on fire. The thoughts have gotten worse as I got older. When I was younger I would just want to throw a tantrum for no reason or break our dishes. Of course ive never done any of those things (my mom would kill me) but it takes SOOOO much resistance and self control for me not to do it. Its more aggrivating than it sounds. I have to try so hard to drive those thoughts away and Im sure I look crazy in the process. I clench my teeth and fists and do this weird tilting thing with my neck.