Am i too needy?
Lately ive been feeling really down and quite unhappy and i cant quite pin point one particular thing thats making me feel like this. Im guessing the main thing is to do with my boyfriend. We have been together for nearly five months now and it has been great and i fell for him very quickly. The problem is that we dont live that close and so we dont get to see each other as much as we would like (usually its about once a week for a few hours, sometimes not even that) its very hard for me. Recently ive been getting really upset more than usual and finding myself crying alot. I said to him that i find it really hard and that i get upset a lot when i dont see him and he said he knows its very hard and that it will be fine. But because im upset i keep feeling bad things like hes going to leave me and that the novalty of the relationship has gone. His txs have slowly got less and less too which terrifies me thinking hes not as bothered as he was at the start but as i say it might just be down to the novalty of it all being new wearing off. Weve never been a couple that talk on the phone we just tx, which ive only just realised is a bit strange. Im a very timid and shy girl with low self esteem and find it difficult to talk about problems im having. Plus because when we do meet up as i said its only for a few hours (as he doesnt drive and has to get the train home which takes an hour each way) i dont want to ruin or spoil the time we have together moaning that hes loosing interest and not putting in as much effort as he used to in the relationship, Im always txing him to talk to him and i proberly seem very needy and i know it must anoy him a lot. But i really feel upset when i cant see him and i even get upset if he doesnt reply to my messages sometimes and then the bad feelings start over again like is he using me, cheating on me, why doesnt he ask me to stay over anymore like he used to. Am i just being really really sad and pathetic that im having these strong feelings? i know i shouldnt because i really do love him and im so happy when we spend time together its just when that time comes to say goodbye thats when i feel absolutly sick and hate to be away from him. He does also have two children that he sees reguarly which sometimes stops him from seeing me, but i know the kids will always come first and i understand that. I know i really must speak to him face to face about it, but its just so hard when i never no when i will see him next plus i am extremely shy about talking about my feelings, i dont want to moan at him i just always seem to need reasurrance from him that we are ok, he always just says that i have nothing to worry about and thats everything is fine, but still because i am very low at the moment still in the back of my head i feel like something is going on and that hes not as keen anymore. Please help me with some usefull advice, am i normal that i worry and miss my boyfriend so much or am i just a needy freak x