am i the only one

I used drugs for years naively thinking the same exact thing. It started out like that, all intellectual and stuff, but 5 years later I ended up shooting up two to three grams of coke a day, i still thought i had everything under control. it really creeps up on u. if i didnt have coke i'd shoot up pills like ritalin, or old coagulated blood that turned black. i've even broke a needle while shooting up and it got stuck in my arm... absesses that er staff had to pop, cotton fever, shooting up in hands because arm veins are all gone.

i used to be the one to write compelling essays on my psychedelic experiences... taken over 100 hits of acid, mushrooms, ketamine, ecstasy, dxm, you name it... i have come to conclude that while it is helpful in figuring out certain stuff about life, it's nothing you couldn't learn about in college psychology or sociology class. if you crave a challenge then take a logic or philosophy class. In my opinion, this is a difficult lesson to learn if you choose to figure it out yourself.