Am I rasist if I'm white don't like rap

Yes, I mean, it wasn't a big deal, I stopped doing it, at least I don't go up to people telling them I jerk off, especially in a public place, this woman I thought was from France where Xena lived said, "I'm big, I'm tall, I'll kick your ass", that's why I shouldn't assume a woman's an Amazon, she might actually kick my arse. You can get an arse-kicking from talking thematic material, controversial shit, to women. I had a lot to learn about how to talk in public, especially in the library, it's offensive shit if it's said in a public library, in my troublesome salad days.

One time I talked to a stranger, an old woman on the bus, named Gloria, trying to seduce her, and despite how serious her glasses may seem, it wasn't serious, I thought she could see my real beauty if I took her glasses off, the bus driver didn't let me, I said "Gloria, if that is your real name, give me a kiss", and I got away with it, and the bus driver said, "no more talking bull on the trip", he wasn't insinuating anything, he meant my talk was a bit impudent the way I talk to people on the bus. That was in my experience of not having"gino-fucking-phobia", but women aren't careful, that's what I've become, when now I would drag a bitch to my house and demand that she's my girlfriend, it worked.

Furthermore there's big men who used to just stand there with the intention of being good to me, responding with my wording by finding that shit offensive, these men look like they wanna hurt me, when they just wanna stand there doing nothing, thinking I'm a total queer (a weird and odd in a dubious way person), they called me queer every time I was eccentric, or acting unique in a dubious way, when they said "you queer" they meant "you fucked up weirdo". That's how it is if you're an eccentric guy, it didn't just happen once for a few years acting weird, but when I dressed in a magical, mystical way it happened for the second phase in my life, I thought it was normal to dress in purple corduroys, act mystical and sit next to a black woman on the bus without her permission while a white man is pissed off at it. I thought he was being racist, I said "no I won't get away from this woman you racist, you have a problem with mixing two races together", I actually said this, he said "get off the bus, you queer", and with a great big fight and me saying no, he eventually threw me off the bus.

This is how I thought that was when I was eighteen and I don't act that way anymore, bullshit, I acted that way at 25 and stopped straight away at 25, I learned from there how to act on a bus, the rest of my trips ran smoothly when I stopped hiding the fact I was acting weird on the bus and I just acted unique openly, and stopped being paranoid on the bus about people looking at me, and wore a brown coat on the bus "acting Australian" looking humble and ascetic in an Australian pauper's way, which was arousing suspicion, my excitement in being normal for the first time was a waste of time, because there is no celebration of being normal, just contempt for uncommon men like me who dressed down and was bankrupt and had no money.