Am i nuts or what? lol

So the storie starts back in 2003. I was offered some ecstasy at a party and like any other drug hell yeah ill do it! I was young and dumb! Anyway yeah i liked it, I liked it a little to much! I finally slept 3 days later about 10 or 15 pills i had eaten. So when i woke up i just didnt feel right, and was just praying someday id wake up and feel normal again. That never happend! I started letting it eat me up on the inside, i was so paranoid and had the worst anxiety attacks ive ever had, and started thinking that there was some way everybody could here my thoughts as i was thinking them, word by word. So in 2005 i was addmited to the hostpital and was put on 3 different medications. For around 3 months it just went away and i didnt care if people could here my thoughts. Ever since after the months went by ive grown to thinking thoughts i dont mean(horrible,sick,twisted and some just plain pointless) But it's very obvious to me that people can hear them. Ive asked friends relatives etc, but no one will admit it. And yet they'll repeat some of these thoughts to me while talking to me or other people around and they laugh about it! Believe me i make up some very original thoughts in my head, and they are repeated during conversation. On a few occasions ive punched people because i thought they just repeated something i thought! So am i just nuts or is this really happening? If true then how is it possible? and why would people be doing this to me? Ive done nothing to deserve any of this! Some advice would be nice or if someone else has this happening to them! Please let me know!

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  • zenofsky4

    A little too much drugs, aye?

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  • Definatly still on the shit

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  • It sounds as though you have truly descended into madness from one dose of ectasy and sleep deprivation. People cannot read your thoughts, this is merely a metaphor for the fact that others can pick up on your body language better than they think they can and you can pick up on theirs the same way. Also, all the strange and twisted thoughts that you have actually have some sort of metaphorical meaning for something

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  • aminormal321

    It sounds more to me that you have a mind that's like a runaway train. You can't stop the negative thoughts, and actually telling yourself to stop thinking about them makes you think about it more. Quite honestly, I'd see a psychiatrist if I were you. Inquire about anxiety medication and possibly an anti-depressant. If nothing else, go back to the hospital and tell them what's going on. Good luck! :)

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  • emptybliss

    Listen ignore the people who are nothing but assholes what you really need to do is get some more help. It is normal to be paranoid. But you still need help.

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  • Sabaky

    R U high?

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  • gako

    Sounds like your still taking drugs.

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  • dominanntrix

    No way is this normal. Get your ass back into therapy, pronto. People can't hear your thoughts. Why would they want to anyway? Sheesh, THERAPY! NOW!

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  • NormalityMan

    Normal. Crazy, but normal in a way. Not good. YOu are super paranoid. I thought people could hear my thoughts for a time too. I was less paranoid about it. I thought about really intricate stories in my head and the supicion of mind readers was settled. I rarely get the thought that people know what I think. I really don't care though. You should stop caring. Think about some detailed original thing. Not words though. Think about images and movie-like stuff. Make up an action-filled adventure that grows from your own life in your head. The paranoid thoughts will fade as you entertain yourself.

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  • fusion1324

    You have a serious mental condition and reading thoughts is telepathic no one has that skill.

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