I pretty much think you are probably not a psychopath. There's a test called Hare's PCL-R. It's the psycopathy checklist revised. it has 20 symptoms, and each symptom you rate 0-if you do not have that symptom, 1-the comment kind of fits you or your behavior, or 2-totally fits your behavior. Look it up online. The animal abuse isn't the most normal thing in the world, but some boys do do that sometimes, it doesn't neccassarily mean they are psychopaths. BTW, the animal abuse isn't even on the checklist. It's just a triad of things serial killers Could have in common but do not always. The other two are setting fires and wetting the bed until 12. I would truly try your hardest not to hurt your animals, because in about 2 years you will completly regret it. They are innocent, they did nothing to put you in the position you are now. I sounds like you are just really angry, and numbing out feelings that are normal when you are mentally healthy. I went through a period of time where there was so many deaths in life within a 3 or 4 year period. And I had a few traumas, and my family was super dysfunctional with drug and alcohol addictions. I was totally numb then, but I still felt pain and anger deep down!! It's hard to care about more minor events when you are going through a high amount of stress, epecially at 16. And people have fetishes, there's nothing wrong with that. I'm hoping your fetishes have to do with a willing participant, even if there is a little pain involved. BDSM isn't really considered a horrible thing, as long as the one you are inflicting pain on, or tieing up, is willing, and likes that fetish as well. I've actually met quite a few guys with the foot fetish thing as well. Now if your fantasies involve forcing someone to do something that they do not want to participate in, or taking advantage of someone, or getting aroused by thoughts of torture or murder... Then its time you talk to someone, like now. You do have remorse, or else you would not be on here. And the other poster was right, psychopaths don't experience anxiety. But I do think you should definately see a therapist. There's nothing wrong with it, most people have, even if some do not talk about it. Are you worried about the Pedophilia thing you mentioned? Do you mind if I ask why? Besides the animal situation, it sounds like you are going through kind of normal responses to extreme circumstances. Not that it is a good thing, you should address it right away.I've been through many of the feelings you have, and it really helps to address it. I know it might seem like you are not in pain, but you probably are in a lot of pain, and your mind is trying to numb the externalities to keep you sane right now. And please,do not take your aggression out on the animals. Rip apart a pillow, break something in your back yard, just no animals. or humans for that matter! Let us know! I'm feeling for ya, we know how hard 16 yrs old can be, especially with stress like that!!!
Am I going to become a serial killer or something?
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I pretty much think you are probably not a psychopath. There's a test called Hare's PCL-R. It's the psycopathy checklist revised. it has 20 symptoms, and each symptom you rate 0-if you do not have that symptom, 1-the comment kind of fits you or your behavior, or 2-totally fits your behavior. Look it up online. The animal abuse isn't the most normal thing in the world, but some boys do do that sometimes, it doesn't neccassarily mean they are psychopaths. BTW, the animal abuse isn't even on the checklist. It's just a triad of things serial killers Could have in common but do not always. The other two are setting fires and wetting the bed until 12. I would truly try your hardest not to hurt your animals, because in about 2 years you will completly regret it. They are innocent, they did nothing to put you in the position you are now. I sounds like you are just really angry, and numbing out feelings that are normal when you are mentally healthy. I went through a period of time where there was so many deaths in life within a 3 or 4 year period. And I had a few traumas, and my family was super dysfunctional with drug and alcohol addictions. I was totally numb then, but I still felt pain and anger deep down!! It's hard to care about more minor events when you are going through a high amount of stress, epecially at 16. And people have fetishes, there's nothing wrong with that. I'm hoping your fetishes have to do with a willing participant, even if there is a little pain involved. BDSM isn't really considered a horrible thing, as long as the one you are inflicting pain on, or tieing up, is willing, and likes that fetish as well. I've actually met quite a few guys with the foot fetish thing as well. Now if your fantasies involve forcing someone to do something that they do not want to participate in, or taking advantage of someone, or getting aroused by thoughts of torture or murder... Then its time you talk to someone, like now. You do have remorse, or else you would not be on here. And the other poster was right, psychopaths don't experience anxiety. But I do think you should definately see a therapist. There's nothing wrong with it, most people have, even if some do not talk about it. Are you worried about the Pedophilia thing you mentioned? Do you mind if I ask why? Besides the animal situation, it sounds like you are going through kind of normal responses to extreme circumstances. Not that it is a good thing, you should address it right away.I've been through many of the feelings you have, and it really helps to address it. I know it might seem like you are not in pain, but you probably are in a lot of pain, and your mind is trying to numb the externalities to keep you sane right now. And please,do not take your aggression out on the animals. Rip apart a pillow, break something in your back yard, just no animals. or humans for that matter! Let us know! I'm feeling for ya, we know how hard 16 yrs old can be, especially with stress like that!!!