Am i gay? bisexual?
I am 17 y.o boy. When I was a child, I admire every handsome boy and I said it honestly to my sister.
But I got a girlfriend when I was 12 and I had never knew about homosexual. It started after I broke up, I loved to searching for penis photos and everything about it. When I was 13-15 I was active on a chatting app, and I loved to do chat sex with some gays.
But I loved a girl when I was 16, she looked 'tomboy' but still normal.
I loved her, and I confessed. She said that she also love me, but she doesn't want to going out right now. So I promised that I'll keep my love for her until she's ready.
I loved her for about 1 year, and when I was graduated to the next level on school, I got a friend (boy).
At first I wasn't feel anything special about it. But it happened after 3 months, he gave me a sweater without any reason.
The truth is I love it when a boy treats me well (maybe like his little brother).
Then I tried to be closer to him, and he treat me like a girl.
I always try to denying that I love boy, but I feel that I 'really' love him and I'm ignoring girls now.
Am I gay?