Am i depressed?

When I look at the typical description of depression I do not relate to most the associated symptoms.
However I have a severe lack of motivation and ambitions. I'm apathetic about almost everything and not feel any reward from anything. Most people talk about how doing things is rewarding for them and makes them feel good. I cannot ever remember relating to this. When I have to do something I resent doing it and would rather have stayed in bed.
I'm not actively suicidal either but I'm a bit indifferent to death as it would relieve me from any potential duties. For now I just drift through life draining any potential resources, so I would probably opt out if I had no source of food and shelter as I live to be comfortable. I don't really have any long term goals though and don't actually enjoy anything, but I'm so apathetic I don't care either. So I don't feel sad at all, nor do I feel anything negative towards myself, but I wonder if I am depressed because I don't actually enjoy anything either.

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  • I think this is called Melencholical depression. But in some cases, depression can cause lack of emotion, lack of motivation, lack of self accomplishment. Feeing numb basically.

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    • Looked it up. Probably not that.

      Melancholic depression, or depression with melancholic features, is a DSM-IV subtype of clinical depression requiring at least one of the following symptoms:

      Anhedonia (the inability to find pleasure in positive things)
      Lack of mood reactivity (i.e. mood does not improve in response to positive events)
      And at least three of the following:

      Depression that is subjectively different from grief or loss
      Severe weight loss or loss of appetite
      Psychomotor agitation or retardation
      Early morning awakening
      Guilt that is excessive
      Worse mood in the morning

      Only ones that fit is Anhedonia and bad mood waking up. None of the others are true about me at all. Some are opposite.

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      • From what I understand about depression I probably don't actually have depression. Schizoid personality disorder could be likely though.

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        • The Classification of Mental and Behavioural Disorders of ICD-10 lists schizoid personality disorder under (F60.1).[44]

          It is characterized by at least four of the following criteria:

          Emotional coldness, detachment or reduced affect.
          Limited capacity to express either positive or negative emotions towards others.
          Consistent preference for solitary activities.
          Very few, if any, close friends or personal relationship, and a lack of desire for such.
          Indifference to either praise or criticism.
          Little interest in having sexual experiences with another person (taking age into account).
          Taking pleasure in few, if any, activities.
          Indifference to social norms and conventions.
          Preoccupation with fantasy and introspection.

          That one completely fits with the exception I have friends.

          I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia before which I also disagree with because I don't have hallucinations or delusions.

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    • Yeah, its more a lack of emotion and motivation than actual sadness. I'm not emotionally unstable at all. More devoid of emotions, so while I'm not distressed by it, I sometimes wish I found more pleasure in things as well and feel like I'm missing out on something.

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  • I feel the same and i have committed myself to become a police officer because I understand that this is the closest think I would like to do. To do good stuff. Because Only thing I am afraid is to end up old and regretting that I never tried to do anything.

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  • This doesn't necessarily mean you are depressed, you just need something to do. Something fulfilling.
    IMO you just sound bored, find something that you actually enjoy.

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  • same for me but the difference is I get some very ''wow amazing fully ambitious, over the clouds'' episodes and some ''I wanna die, life is shit, come back to reality'' episodes.

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  • Sounds like you need purpose and responsibility. Apathetic people have usually cruised through life without having to deal with real problems.

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    • I've had lots of problems but manage to avoid responsibility. I don't require much to be satisfied. I've lived in a storage shed and was perfectly content.

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  • Look man if you are gonna ask are you depressed then everybody is gonna say yes most of the people in this world are almost same at some extent hell even i am the same way so sometimes you just have to get over it

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  • I am the exact same way...

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