Am i depressed?
When I look at the typical description of depression I do not relate to most the associated symptoms.
However I have a severe lack of motivation and ambitions. I'm apathetic about almost everything and not feel any reward from anything. Most people talk about how doing things is rewarding for them and makes them feel good. I cannot ever remember relating to this. When I have to do something I resent doing it and would rather have stayed in bed.
I'm not actively suicidal either but I'm a bit indifferent to death as it would relieve me from any potential duties. For now I just drift through life draining any potential resources, so I would probably opt out if I had no source of food and shelter as I live to be comfortable. I don't really have any long term goals though and don't actually enjoy anything, but I'm so apathetic I don't care either. So I don't feel sad at all, nor do I feel anything negative towards myself, but I wonder if I am depressed because I don't actually enjoy anything either.