Am i an idiot

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Hi, I'd rather not say my name but I am writing this in search for help. I have ADHD and towards the end of the night, I get pretty stupid. Everyone already thinks I'm stupid because I don't do as well in school as the rest of the family. Both of my parents (divorced) know that I'm a little slow but don't really hide their feelings about me. I try to be a very nice person but I get mad at myself for doing things. For example, today I got yelled at by my stepdad for talking to my sister while standing on the shelf of her desk/bed when all of the sudden, it broke and woke everybody up. All the shelves were knocked over and my sister started yelling and crying. My mom came in while I was on the floor in pain because I fell on something that went you-know-where. I realized I had really fucked up and just a few days before I thought I was starting to redeem myself from all of the idiotic things I have done in the past. I have tried electronic projects and I have almost shocked myself to death 7 times. I stopped doing those things and I started to make friends in high school. I then got in some trouble with the school for something stupid that I was not much involved in. All I will say is that it had something to do with hacking. Anyway, my family looked at me like a total idiot again. I thought I had friends but I then realized I had none. I am usually accused of being like my dad at my mom's house (my dad is an ass-hole) and I'm hesitating to post this because if my dad or mom were to find this they would think it even more stupid. Whenever I get mad or show any sad emotion my mom will tell me to stop feeling sorry for myself and acting like my dad did. When I would get mad at something she would accuse me of evolving into an abusive person which I never would be. I swear on my life that I will never be abusive to anyone. That is what people don't get. I am trying extremely hard in math but I'm still not doing so well... I haven't for the entire 9th grade.... I just don't get anything and with my complex schedule between houses its hard to get with the tutor to learn the content I don't understand in time. My mom claims I'm not trying and it's because I'm not doing the homework but I am and its evident that the only thing I am suffering from in the grade book is the tests that I don't get. My grade would be much worse if she checked the homework for correctness. Many other people in my class don't get what the teacher is saying but they somehow always get good grades. I am afraid to ask them how they do that because I don't want them thinking I am and idiot too. Honestly, the only place I had to go for peace and not suffering was the school with my best friends which I am now banned from being friends with by my dad. All I want is to not be an idiot. Am I an idiot? AND NO SUGAR COATING! (selcet no this is not normal for no you are not an idiot OR select yes this is normal for you are an idiot)

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  • Keepsake
    7 years ago

    No, I don't think you are. Your parents seem overbearing and the family seems a bit dysfunctional. Try to get tutoring at school if you need it, or talk to a teacher about your troubles.
    If you need more help, I might be able to help with tutoring you on basic math - assuming it's algebra.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      7 years ago

      thanks for the advice

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      • shora2020
        7 years ago

        Thanks brother u r very kind person.

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  • crygypsy
    7 years ago

    I feel like it should be select "yes " it's normal if you aren't an idiot or "no" it's not normal if you are an idiot. But no you don't seem like an idiot. Maybe just a little slow in some areas. Everyone has their talents though so don't be bothered. My bf is terrible at writing/spelling and anything intellectual but I still love him to death. I can see all of his amazing other qualities (such as his huge heart and his animal whispering talents) and am not very bothered with his slowness in other areas. My advice to you would be to find out what you love and embrace that. Express that. Show it off and be confident with it. Everyone has their talents. Don't focus on being smart. Focus on being passionate. About something! Anything! :)

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    • No_Name_11d7
      7 years ago

      Thanks

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  • mrimgoingtokillu
    7 years ago

    yes

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  • ojimpu
    6 years ago

    It's as if I met my other me. We're just kids trying to give it our all but then we end up making fools out of our selves. We'll make it! Don't lose hope.

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  • peterrabbyt69
    7 years ago

    ADHD guys suck cock better than any other guys.

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  • rayb12
    7 years ago

    You sound very intelligent. I can say that I have never heard a person I consider to be intelligent call someone else an idiot. Don't pay attention to them.

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  • EccentricWeird
    7 years ago

    yes

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  • Rilley
    7 years ago

    I don't think you're an idiot, however from what I gather from your post you don't always make the brightest decisions.

    Your family however seems overbearing and very judgemental, so try not to listen to them too much.

    Is there an education program at your school that caters to students who have learning difficulties? I use to attend one at my old high school, though I did feel slightly embarrassed at going, however in the long run it was worth it and helped me graduate.

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    7 years ago

    if you have to ask what

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    • crygypsy
      7 years ago

      He is being sarcastic. Don't mind him.

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  • mrimgoingtokillu
    7 years ago

    yes ur definately stupid...but dont be hard on urself....some things are just made rong.get over ureself be a man or a woman.thinking about it too much makes things worse.and infact its correlates with alot of male dyfunction,,,the mind.....it can make ur fears a reality...so tell ur stupid self... im as a clever as the next joe on the bus...maybe ur intellecuat capacity will increase by two percent and ull be two percent smarter

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  • shora2020
    7 years ago

    I think your problems r
    1- your mother has a strong personality
    2- your dad has a kind personality
    3- your brothers and sisters like your Mother but u look like your dad
    This makes many problems between u and you'd family
    Try to have a strong kind trusted personality as well.

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  • Lillygir1
    7 years ago

    Yes you are.

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