You may need help with how to control and express your anger. You may also need help with your social anxiety, as interaction with a range of people beyond your family can help develop your understanding of social norms, ethics and sense of empathy. But I don't think you are a sociopath (psychopath).
Sociopaths tend not to care or even speculate as to whether or not they are sociopaths, they simply do what benefits them most regardless of whom is left hurt by their actions. They will consciously manipulate people and situations to suit their needs, whatever they may be. They have the empathetic ability of a baby.
If you were a sociopath, a more likely response to being confronted after using your brother's credit card would be that you'd attempt to gain sympathy from your mum - you'd say "I'm so sorry mom... I don't know what's wrong with me". Maybe you'd have already made up several plausible stories as to why you 'need' the money, "I'm just really struggling with money right now and I'm finding it difficult to pay for basic things like books for school" etc. Because if you were a sociopath, you'd see keeping your family on side has a greater advantage than damaging your relationship with them. 'Getting away with it' means more opportunities to take what you want.
If you were a sociopath, you wouldn't have social anxiety. You might dislike social situations, but that wouldn't be because they make you nervous. If anything, as a sociopath, you'd be more likely to be quite adept as a social 'butterfly' and impress people with all kinds of feigned behaviour and invented stories. You'd probably be very confident due to the extent that you care only about yourself, and are way up on the narcissistic scale. Your self esteem would probably be unshakeably and ridiculously high.
It's easy to romanticise sociopathy or even empathise with sociopaths - they can appeal to our own desire to get what we want, to avoid becoming emotionally connected with anyone and to avoid a sense of guilt or responsibility. But you're not a sociopath (and in all likelihood that's a very good thing).
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You may need help with how to control and express your anger. You may also need help with your social anxiety, as interaction with a range of people beyond your family can help develop your understanding of social norms, ethics and sense of empathy. But I don't think you are a sociopath (psychopath).
Sociopaths tend not to care or even speculate as to whether or not they are sociopaths, they simply do what benefits them most regardless of whom is left hurt by their actions. They will consciously manipulate people and situations to suit their needs, whatever they may be. They have the empathetic ability of a baby.
If you were a sociopath, a more likely response to being confronted after using your brother's credit card would be that you'd attempt to gain sympathy from your mum - you'd say "I'm so sorry mom... I don't know what's wrong with me". Maybe you'd have already made up several plausible stories as to why you 'need' the money, "I'm just really struggling with money right now and I'm finding it difficult to pay for basic things like books for school" etc. Because if you were a sociopath, you'd see keeping your family on side has a greater advantage than damaging your relationship with them. 'Getting away with it' means more opportunities to take what you want.
If you were a sociopath, you wouldn't have social anxiety. You might dislike social situations, but that wouldn't be because they make you nervous. If anything, as a sociopath, you'd be more likely to be quite adept as a social 'butterfly' and impress people with all kinds of feigned behaviour and invented stories. You'd probably be very confident due to the extent that you care only about yourself, and are way up on the narcissistic scale. Your self esteem would probably be unshakeably and ridiculously high.
It's easy to romanticise sociopathy or even empathise with sociopaths - they can appeal to our own desire to get what we want, to avoid becoming emotionally connected with anyone and to avoid a sense of guilt or responsibility. But you're not a sociopath (and in all likelihood that's a very good thing).