Am i a mentally ill or defective girl?
Im a girl but i never thought guys were interesting aesthetically, but if i see girls in stuff like tight dresses i want to touch them so badly i basically go into a fugue state with desire?? Their poetic and hypnotic bodies, i dont know why they do that to me. Can i get better from this? I thought growing up would sort me out but im 18 so im scared ill be perverted forever. Do girls feel this way sometimes? I used to feel really weird but happy when i saw underwear models in womens fashion catalogues. Im scared ill never become normal. I really feel self hatred about it, but also that it can’t be real, it’s just a defect.