Alcohol cures autism

I know exactly how you feel!
I dont have autism tho. Im just quiet. Like, super quiet. Im told i was even quiet as a child unless i was singing by myself or talking one on one with someone. Or alone with my family, no friends around.

For a while i thought igrew out of that. Like i only talked to my group of friends but when it came to other ppl talkin to us, we'd get quiet and mean-mug them. Tell them not to talk to us lol i actually talked too much to my friends . Im usually pretty normal around extended family too.
But i moved and have been living alone basically for 3 years and no one really spoke to me in this new city. Short empty convos occasionally.

I developed a really bad anxiety. Mixed with bad depression i had since i was about 5.
I dont really talk to people. Like i can think of a million responses to ppl, but they dont come out. I tell myself "f'n talk! Say it outloud!" and it doesnt work. Sometimes i can gather enough courage to speak to strangers and stuff. But when ppl are mad or upset with me, words dont come out or come out wrong or mumbled/slurred. Or too low to hear becuz i have a super soft voice..
Or i cant think of anything to say at all.
I used to be on anti anxiety meds but i started feeling like i needed them more and more often everyday. I told my doctor i felt like an addict and he basically just said "then dont take them. Or stay on the regular schedule. I cant help you if you dont help yourself" ._.
I tried weed and it makes it worse. It makes me overthink. Or it makes it hard to think I'd forget what i was thinking lol
I started drinkin for fun and it melts my anxiety and i feel normal. I feel like my inner self can come out and i can be me.
I can laugh and joke, be sarcastic and speak normally (if i dont get eff'd up lol).
I can order my own food and actually say whats on my mind. I can go jogging and go into walmart alone and hold a full conversation for hours..

So i know what you mean. I dont think you should see it as a crutch, or cure. Depending on how much you drink..
Dont go drinkin all day everyday. It will start off as a mixed cup occasionally. Maybe a shot or 2 sometimes. And before you know it, youll be buyin a bottle every week if not several times a week.
Be careful .
Happy for you that you can find a moment's peace and be yourself. I dont know what its like to be autistic but i know its not easy. And thats an understatement.