Coming here for advice and opinions, you can tell me I’m a joke and make fun all you want but I’m at a loss.
Me and by boyfriend will be going on 5 years this July and for the last three years he’s told me how much I’ve ruined his life and I’m the reason he’s let him self go and is angry, messy, etc.
I’m at fault because every time he pushes away I pull closer. I know I love someone who doesn’t love me and doesn’t even want me in their life. But I don’t know how to let go.
5 years ago I couldn’t imagine being in a relationship and now I can’t imagine life being singe. He was 15 and I was 17, at first he was obsessed with me made me feel amazing and after 2-3 years it’s like a switch flipped and that’s when he started telling me he hated me. Wouldn’t talk to me for weeks at a time and like I said above I ran back every time.
I’m scared, scared of what his family will think of me, what he’ll say to our friends and mostly of all seeing him with someone else. What makes it even harder is I’ve become VERY close with his older sister, we work together and I feel like when break up that’s is another relationship I will lose.
I know I should move on, we try talking and he becomes angry saying the most hurtful things. That he hates everything about me and our relationship. I want to prove I’m good enough. But I know I should be with someone who I don’t need to prove it to, someone who loves me unconditionally like I love him.
What’s your advice for a break up? I’m gonna break up with him I think but I’m gonna be so broken.