"single 20 year old man yet to have a steady girlfriend"
I'm 20 years old and I've never had a steady girlfriend. I've dated and have had no luck in continuing to hang out with them. They always seem to blow me off. The last date I went out on was in February and the girl never expressed interest on the phone when I called her up after the date a few days after. So I tried to just keep it moving and not let it affect me so much. However, I am really at the stage where I am constantly down on myself and am always thinking about how I suck when it comes to women. It is so bad to the point where I'm beginning to think something is wrong with me and often feel inadequate when it comes to my appearance. When I go out and see pretty girls I often want to approach them but I tend to hold back due to fear of rejection and sometimes when I see other men walking with their girl I get jealous and ask myself why can't that be me. I'll see guys who appear to have the whole package, the swagger and the physique and sometimes I wish I looked diesel like those macho guys. It may sound gay, but I have looked at other men, not because I can picture myself having sex with them, but in admiration of how they look. I feel that sometimes I'm not hot enough or built. When I walk my head is often down. Also when I talk to girls, the conversation sometimes does not flow. I haven't had sex in a year. I hardly have any friends.