"is it normal to love your friend ?"
I was very active and always used be with friends. During my studies,I felt that I am more possessive about one of my friend.I felt its wrong to love a friend when the other person doesnot think so about me.And I am not the right person for her. I used to avoid all kind of contacts with her. Our studies finished and we all started working. My feelings for her increased day by day. Finally i thought, distance and time are two solutions to get over it.I left my job, got back to studies in another country.I didn't wanted to lose her in my life time telling all this story (Nobody wants to hurt there beloved ones).Alcohol was helping me to forget her memories. Last time I called her when I was drunk and I dont even remember what I told her. She never spoke from that day. Neither received calls or mails.I am burnt inside with the guilt of hurting our friendship. I lost love (which I never possessed)and i lost friendship as well. I dont know what to do. I am restless and feel like my heart is cut into thousand pieces. Please help me what should I do.