you have the wrong impression of how people other than you see this. To you it appears badass, but to them it does not. You may get fulfilment out of saying it, but, you will probably lose social status as well. In some cases. The outcome is uncertain, so I'd say if you want to say this be aware that it might not end up how you want, which is not the end of the world, everyone does silly things. As for wanting to say it as the truth, and going out and shooting up so it will be the truth, you are taking a big risk. It is a very addictive drug. However, I've shot up probably 5 times in my life, and yes I got a good hit--and personally found the whole thing to be over rated. I do not ever experience the urge to shoot up, but I enjoy it when I do. what they say on trainspotting about it being like a thousand thaousand orgasms--heh, that's silly. It is not that great. To me. I think MDMA plus some spice and a bit of LSD is WAY better than shooting up as far as the rush goes. I'd say that was the most pleasurable experience out there. But different drugs do different things to different people, and some people never stop shooting up after the first time, and it leads to a VERY hard life that YOU don't want. You do have the power to control yourself to some extent, but I'd never reccomend anyone take the risks I take. I take them because I have few responsibilities and little to no family. The consequences I face and those you face are different. Personally, I tend to distrust junkies and ex junkies and not like them much, and the people in that scene are usually shit friends, criminals, and backstabbers-- you have to go to some dark places with bad people to get that stuff, and I don't find much about any of it to be admirable. Neither do most people, and they may start locking up their personal items when you are around. Didn't expect that, eh? But I've wished for things for myself that other people find strange, too. I'd say you'd be safer off telling the lie than the truth, if you must find out what it is like. I've carried out my fantasies by telling my friends I used to do this or that (a sex act), weather I have or not, and what it taught me in my youth is that people usually end up not giving a shit about this thing that is so important to me, and for a while just them knowing I did it was fun, but the more I realized they had long since forgotten this thing which was such a big deal to me, made it end up much more boring than I expected. Plus if you ever tell a real junkie or ex junkie you could find yourself in a moment of truth or a dangerous situation. I have heard of other people fantasizing about the junkie life, so you are not the first person this has happened to, and it IS NORMAL--just rare. however, I expect that you will find going through with your adventures in storytelling to be less satisfying than you imagine, yet a good learning experience--if you don't get in some kind of trouble by those "overly concerned 3rd party" kind of people. The only way to get over this fantasy might be going ahead and carrying it out. It is certianly less risky than shooting up in real life, and it may help you move past this fantasy of yours if it has become a bother. Find some people you won't have to be around for long and just tell them. You'll find it is more boring than you think.
"Back When I Used To Shoot Up"
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you have the wrong impression of how people other than you see this. To you it appears badass, but to them it does not. You may get fulfilment out of saying it, but, you will probably lose social status as well. In some cases. The outcome is uncertain, so I'd say if you want to say this be aware that it might not end up how you want, which is not the end of the world, everyone does silly things. As for wanting to say it as the truth, and going out and shooting up so it will be the truth, you are taking a big risk. It is a very addictive drug. However, I've shot up probably 5 times in my life, and yes I got a good hit--and personally found the whole thing to be over rated. I do not ever experience the urge to shoot up, but I enjoy it when I do. what they say on trainspotting about it being like a thousand thaousand orgasms--heh, that's silly. It is not that great. To me. I think MDMA plus some spice and a bit of LSD is WAY better than shooting up as far as the rush goes. I'd say that was the most pleasurable experience out there. But different drugs do different things to different people, and some people never stop shooting up after the first time, and it leads to a VERY hard life that YOU don't want. You do have the power to control yourself to some extent, but I'd never reccomend anyone take the risks I take. I take them because I have few responsibilities and little to no family. The consequences I face and those you face are different. Personally, I tend to distrust junkies and ex junkies and not like them much, and the people in that scene are usually shit friends, criminals, and backstabbers-- you have to go to some dark places with bad people to get that stuff, and I don't find much about any of it to be admirable. Neither do most people, and they may start locking up their personal items when you are around. Didn't expect that, eh? But I've wished for things for myself that other people find strange, too. I'd say you'd be safer off telling the lie than the truth, if you must find out what it is like. I've carried out my fantasies by telling my friends I used to do this or that (a sex act), weather I have or not, and what it taught me in my youth is that people usually end up not giving a shit about this thing that is so important to me, and for a while just them knowing I did it was fun, but the more I realized they had long since forgotten this thing which was such a big deal to me, made it end up much more boring than I expected. Plus if you ever tell a real junkie or ex junkie you could find yourself in a moment of truth or a dangerous situation. I have heard of other people fantasizing about the junkie life, so you are not the first person this has happened to, and it IS NORMAL--just rare. however, I expect that you will find going through with your adventures in storytelling to be less satisfying than you imagine, yet a good learning experience--if you don't get in some kind of trouble by those "overly concerned 3rd party" kind of people. The only way to get over this fantasy might be going ahead and carrying it out. It is certianly less risky than shooting up in real life, and it may help you move past this fantasy of yours if it has become a bother. Find some people you won't have to be around for long and just tell them. You'll find it is more boring than you think.