18 year old, female virgin holds self back from sex
Alright, I can't believe I am going to ask fr you opinion of me, but I really feel I need someone's honest thoughs.
I am 18 years old and I have only gone as far as kissing. Theres nothing wrong with me, I am of the impression I am very attractive. I just won't allow myself to continue any further sexually with a guy or girl.
It ridiculous, I know im some sort of sexual freak. I get off at least 5 times a day, but when it comes to progressing sexually with a partner I won't let myself.
I am not afriad of sex.
I just feel that I am demented.
Like I am not capable of love.
And I don't like the image that comes with having casual sexual partners.
But I am like so horney and craving just to f**k.
I even offerd a couple boys to be "friends with benifits" but they won't accept it. Both got upset with me becuase I didn't want anything more.
I just don't get whats wrong with me??
I think I have some serious commitment issues.
Anything dealing with being close to someone I run from. Even past my sexaul frustration I won't even date.
Ugghhh. I feel like I wasn't meant for life.
Advice? help? am I at all normal?