...scared to be alone.

Hi there OP, sorry it took me so long to respond. When I got your response I
felt like I didn't consciously know what I had done to feel less alone and decrease my dissociative symptoms. I had to kinda back track in my mind about what I had been through in the past year and a half.

I had had a falling out with three female friends which had forced me to turn inward. I spent a lot of time in prayer and meditation and also worked with a sponsor in the 12 step program of Codependents Anonymous as well as seeing a therapist on a regular basis. I'm also an animal lover so my best friend and Siamese cat helps me to stay grounded.

To make and maintain conscious contact with my Higher Power has helped me greatly. Although I'm a person of faith it's common in many twelve step programs to use the phrase Higher Power rather than to say God because it's a very personal thing and people have many different religious belief systems including agnostic and atheistic beliefs. Spending time in nature and with my feline companion helps me to feel connected to the universe and my concept of a Higher Power. Also it helps me to record my thoughts and emotions in a journal so that when I'm having a hard time I can release my negative feelings while respecting my personal boundaries and not over sharing or confiding in others that may not be trustworthy.

I hope this helps! :-)