Nah but in all honesty I really needed that kind of comment cause I feel like a pussy writing shit like this and having someone reply with something not so sympathetic made me realize I don't need ...

Lol nice one really got me out of my rut now I can go living on as if nothing has happened :-)

I've identified with Martyrdom but mostly because it how I want to die. Or rather its a worthy way to spend my life I mean I've been suicidal,more so than usual, and I'm already out of that awkward...