I'm a righty and quite artistic but I can't seem to master the gel pen either. I've tried several times because, as you said, it looks good, but I don't know how people get it to look that way. Min...

I chew gum all day. It's better than smoking or eating and it relieves stress. Just make sure you brush your teeth a few times a day.

Why are you holding it in? Are you afraid of what people might think? It's better you let it out than to keep it in and damage yourself.

I do the same thing sometimes. I think it's a comfort thing that I do when I feel overwhelmed. I always feel more "normal" (whatever that is) after a talk with myself.