I will definitely read it. Thanks for the suggestion

and then struggle to understand why I can't to do the same.

I can relate to that. I think I spend too much time trying to guess the intentions of others, instead of just taking things as they are.

I dont want to be. It's just strange for me to watch people react to situations in ways that I couldnt possible ever see myself doing

I do this and I never notice that people do it any other way

Completely normal. I'm listening to Four Tet-Sing, as i write this down