It is because of trauma. It's normal to fetishize something you couldn't control in the past because it helps you to control it now but it's definitely a sort of coping mechanism

Don't touch her without her consent. Doesn't matter if she's your cousin, a friend, or your wife. Don't touch her without consent. If she wants to fuck, great. It can be your little secret. If she ...

My mom told me never to throw the first punch but if they did, I should end the fight by hitting back harder. But the only fights I've been in, I did throw the first (and only) punch because they w...

I dumped my bf because of this. He doesn't know how much he bugged the ever living hell out of me.

I thought she was prettier than me in 6th grade ;-; not anymore ;P

Glad it's not that unusual :)