you're kind of an idiot. being autistic has nothing to do with not wanting affection. it's mostly about not understanding social cues and understanding what is and isn't appropriate. i bet you're...

Just part of your imagination. Probably memories of a dream you had, or something you saw on TV.

I've felt this way since I was 12 years old. It's very common with depression. Don't sweat it, just keep improving your life and I'm sure you'll become empathetic again.